Yesterday went to town together with some firends. Acctually went there to survey my mom birthday present but end up survey on my shoes. Wanna know why? My mummy said this " Boy, if u wanna buy something foe my birthday, go to golden chance and u'll find what i want. " Hahaha. I have a thick skin mummy. Well, once in a lifetime im going to buy for her what she one but not using my money alone but gonna share some money with my both sisters. So, our first stop to Long John and have our lunch. Something did happen there and i think i shall keep it to myself. Hahaha. We sure did talk alot. Especially the two people which is in the same school. Keje nak mengumpat jek but atleast their talking the facts uh. After that went to Taka to survey the shoes and we did have a tour around Taka. Hahaha. Lost but eventually we manage to find the shop and gyeaah survey survey survey. Sombody wanted to buy that Puma shoes ekh? Da nak jalan, sempat dier patah balek nak check price ekh. Hahaha. We have to get seprated as somebody need to go city hall to have audition. Play pool while waiting for my 517 Bro to arrive. Stop and straight to cathay when they gave a call. Watch Death Race. Rate : 10/10. Its great. Supposed to go geylang to see the light up but my movie show ended late. So sorry. So gyeaah, ended my day with a great smile =)
Game against National Football Academic just now. We lost 3-1. Well, they play better. A game always have a lose and a win. So yeah, We lose but we did our best. Just now was the last game of Developing League and we are going to prepare for our challenge cup during October. Well, its a clash between challenge cup, Hari Raya and N-level. There's such thing called Time management. I have to manage my time well in order to focused on my soccer and N-level.Recalling Back The Songs.
Firstly, Let me get this straight, I'm not the one who sings and im not the one who played the guitar but those lyrics, it was made by me and it really comes from the bottom of my heart which i sincerely wrote to let them know how i feel for them at that point of time. Lets recall ......
First song-Ku Yang Bersalah. Dedicated to a Girl Name Jasmine Amira.
This is how the story goes, This happen about 4 years back. It was a school holiday and eventually that point of time was Hari Raya. I just finish my game at Limbang and was having my lunch at Limbang Shopping Mall Mcdonald. When we enter, the first thing that caught our eyes was a group of people with their Baju kurung which was Jasmine and her friends group. I donnoe why they caught our eyes, maybe they are just the most kechorable group in that Mcdonald. So we decide to sit next to their table. We took our order and have lunch. While eating, me and iskandar(evan) have been talking about Jasmine and friends group. I said " Ekh, Baju biru tu lawa siak. Ditu aku nyer ah". The girl which i was referring to was Jasmine. Iskandar said " Aku nyer yang colour hijau ah. Lagik lawa dari kau nyer". As we talk, our stomach was full of food and there's still left over fries. Guess what? We throw the fries at them and step donnoe. Hahaha. We continue to throw and they decide to take a move. When they stood up, I ask one of the group members for Jasmine number but they just turn and leave. I tot i don't have any chance that point of time but im wrong. The person who i ask for jasmine number from came back in and show me her hp with a phone number. Seriously , i don't expect it. Iskandar also ask for Iffah phone number and he get it too. So msg her for quite sometime and there's one time i ask her whether she wanna be my gf and guess what she answerd ? She say yes! I was so happy that i jump all over the place. Still remember the phrase " I hope u and me will be honey and hubby forever ". Try to imagine a primary school student said that? Funny huh?
So yeah, we did become honey and hubby for quite some time but its stop when its the first day to be in my secondary school. Again me and Iskandar talk about this two girl , Emilia and Fakira. So we choose which gal we want and we ask for theur number. I know im a busterd. Emilia and Fakira was in the same primary school as Jasmine. Emilia was my choice and msg her for quite some time and guess what happen next? I ask for Jasmine break and i stead with Emilia. Jasmine said she don't wanna break but i just heck care her at that poinnt of time. Again I know im a BUSTERD. Emilia than ask me to follow her to her primary school to meet her teachers. When there's a few more steps to reach the school, Jasmine saw me with emilia. Her tears started to run down her face and she run away. Again i heck care. Again, I know im a BUSTERD ! Month have pass and my relationship with emilia dosen't seems to go right. So i ask her for a break. After the break, I was falling back to Jasmine. I thought it was easy for me to get her back but ITS NOT. She was seriously hurt for what i did. I deserve it. So i waited for her. Not a year But 2 years of waiting. She still didn't accpet me. In the past 2 years, i try to forget her by having a relationship with other girls but Jasmine just can't get off my head. Everytime when i think about her, i break up the relationship with the girl. Again im a Busterd ! Its hard for me to eat , sleep and its hard for people to see a smile on my face. "What goes around comes a round" So one day when im home alone thinking about her, i decide to wrote a song for her titled " Aku yang bersalah". So this is the story of this song. Recently, i get to know that Jasmine Amira First bf was me! Now i know why its hard for her to accept me back. I feel fucking bluddy guilty when i know that. I would like to ask for a thousand appologiies to her. Hope she read this.
Second Song - Eemah. Dedicated to a girl name Fatimah.
My house was having " Kenduri Arwah " at that time. So all of my cousin and friends were at my house. My sister invited her school friend, Zakiah. She come along with her cousin which is Fatimah and her sis. I just can't keep my eyes off Fatimah. So told my sister, " Kak , Pompan tu lawa lah". My sister answered " Da lah kau, Takmo nak menggatal boleh tak." hahaa. So Fatimah sit down at my sister room all the way with her sis and Zakiah. When she wanted to go home, I was downstairs with my peeps. When i saw her going down the steps, I ask her for her number. She ignore and she turns away. But eventually Zakiah was kind enough to give her number. Thanksy. So msg her for quite sometime and its fun msging her. =). As days goes by, My heart was falling for her. So i decide to ask her to be my gf. She said " Not now, We just know each other". So i accept it and i wait. I waited till for so long but she just give me the same reason. I know im being inpatient. Wrote a song for her. Listen to it and the lyrics are at imeem. =). Check it out. So one day, like finally she accpet me and yes, we are together and i called her my Smelly Belly Bucuk! Haha. Cute name huh? But eventually we broke up when it was only 17 more days to go for our one year anniversary. You will know why in the story of the next song. So again a thousand appologies to Fatimah Binte Ibrahim.
Third Song - Ingin Ku kekal Dengan Mu. Dedicated to a girl name Syuhaidah.
I was bored at home alone. Look thru my friendster. My old comment and testi. I was looking thru and i saw a girl give me a birthday wish in the year 2005. I look thru her profile and add her up in msn. We chatted as per normal and we did exchange number. After we exchange number, i ask her this " u nyer orang suke msg tak ? cause ader orang kalau baru baru kenal dier tak layan. " She reply " Maybe, u should give it a try and im not that type of person. Im super friendly". So msg her and she did reply all of my msg. Thanksy. The first time when we meet is when i send her to school on school holiday which is on late November. Yupp , she's one beautiful and cute girl. We message oftenly and meet up oftenly. One day, when i was having my sentosa trip with my fellow 517 peeps, Something happen. She said she wanna forget about me. Thats where i know something was wrong. Guess what? She get to know that i have a gf and the girl that im attched with is eemah. I was so desprate to know who told her that and when i got to know who is the person, i was damn pissed off. So, after my Sentosa trip, went to meet her and try to console her. I ask her this " sejak u contact i, u ader raser sayang kat i tak". She said " yup there is" And so i have to make a choice either eemah or Syuhaidah. I ask iskandar for some advise cause he really good at it. So i've made my choice and i choose syuhaidah. After breaking up with eemah, I have some time on my own and i ask for syuhaidah to be my life partner. Its hard for her to accept me but she gonna gove me a chance to proof to her. After she accept me, her schoolmates was angry cause they said that im a boy which is not serious in relationship. So thats why i wrote this song " ingin ku kekal denganmu. " Check the lyrics and u people will knoe what im talking about.
We were happy at first but when my soccer season starts, the relationship is cocupt. My training was almost everyday and i don have much time for her. I wanna her to know this. Its not that im don't love u anymore but i just pity u. A bf must acctually give attention to his gf but im not doing that. I get tired after my training and i don have that much time for u. I think u should go and have a freedom in your life. U can go out with anyone u like. No more concern to me. Its not that i don't care but i just want u to go back with ur life which u was having before being with me. A thousand appologies to u Syuhaidah. I know i've hurt u alot of time but this gonna be the last time im hurting u.
So there it goes. 3 songs to 3 beaytiful ladies. I know i've been a busterd. Im seriously sorry alright. So for now, im not gonna have any gf. I don't wanna go around and hurt any girls feeling anymore. I have promise someone that i won't be going around and hurt any more girls feeling and im gonna promise to myself too. For now, i wanna focused on my N-level and finish my studies. So thats it. One long post. Goodnight =)
After that, Went straight back to the locker room and have my wash up. Pack up my things and sit on the gallery and and watch the game. While watching, ate some choclate which i bought at the 7-eleven before game. Sitting on the gallery really can see how my teamates play as a team. Raden shots was beautiful but eventually hit the pose. Not once but twice. Well hard luck. From the gallery, i can see that we played very well but they won the game in overall. So yeah, every game there's always a win and a learning expirence. After game coach give us a ride to yew tee. Thats what coach usually do after training and games. Talk again with coach.
Raden ask me to join him to go for the National trial next year but i don't think i'm going in the team. I need lot more to improve before going in the Natonal team. Especially my Fitness. My Fitness Level is way to low. I need to improve on that and my tactical work. Tomorrow Training at Old Trafford (Infront of Yew Tee CC). Sunday game against National Football Acedmy u15, 5pm at Sports School. GoodNight!
NDP 2008
I have to wake up in the morning with mummy cause i have to go Jalan Besar Stadium for the CFA (Children Financial Awards). So i have to wake up as early as 8 to get myself prepare. Thanks to sister for waking up early and send us there. Wan and his mom jump in the car with me as well. So after the ceremony, Went to eat ayam penyet just beside the Stadium. Well , kakak and mummy said it was nice and SEDAP. Alah , tengok lah siaper yang pilih tempat. Went home, Watch the story LOVE which i rent it in Greenridge Shopping Centre and Fall asleep at the middle of the story. err , Boring ? Tired ? Haha. Tired lah.